It’s 3am|Journal Entry #1

This is the first post of a series on this blog that will be just…basically journaling. I won’t plan or schedule these…it’s just me rambling. So feel free to hang around…but if you are hear for my usual blogs I post every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

There will probably be typos and unfinished thoughts. But…that is why this is ramblings and then there is well put together blogs lmao.

Anyways…aside from the disclaimer…I am sitting up at three am…on the struggle bus of not being able to sleep when I am supposed to…especially since I work at 8…so neato.

I am currently working on the #kayteableproject which is just me…trying to be a better me. I currently have a weight loss/fitness goal and there is a lot of things that go into that. It’s not just changing your diet and working out more (which…obviously is a big part) but struggling with emotional eating, sleep deprivation, changing bad habits. It’s hard. It sucks. And sometimes I feel like I won’t succeed.

Listen. I know with hard work and continuing to put my head is possible. I have already seen so many changes within myself. For example…I am here talking to you guys instead of shoving my face full of 24 hour junk food. But I still want to go get the junk food and that is the continuous fight.

I always want my blog to be a place of positivity and motivation. Because that is genuinely how I feel most of the time. But I know as a viewer I would feel frustrated reading people’s blogs that never discussed the hard times or the struggles they were going through…and I personally want to be transparent.

So, I don’t want you to take away that I want to give up or not complete my weight loss goal…I just want to acknowledge that there are sides to this journey that are hard.

For me my struggles are over eating both when I am emotional…and then also when my blood sugars go low (I am a type one diabetic) and I have to break my calorie budget to correct that. So some of it is a lack of self control…and the other is a lack of control all together.

I always want to put my life and well being before the desire to lose a few pounds…but that doesn’t make it any less frustrating….but it also doesn’t make it any less possible.

I feel a bit better just giving a little rant so I am going to try and grab some zzz’s before I have to work. See you around. Feel free to let me know what you are up to. Nice to have friends 🙂


One Comment Add yours

  1. Para Sakti says:

    Thanks for sharing and being transparant. We all have had at least a few 3am struggles.


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